Fat experiences

Recently my experiences have been quite... unfulfilling to say the least.

I have been into this for nearly a decade and I'm just really down recently. my life is doing great, got my own space and a job. and since I live by myself I thought this would be the chance to just gorge and succumb to gluttony.

But it's been very disappointing. No matter how much I eat or chug, even to the bursting point (or as close as I can get) I still don't feel accomplished. I'm not in this to gain weight otherwise I would go a different route. I just... thought I loved to feel full and stuffed to the brim but recently, not anymore.

I still remember the excitement I had back when I lived with my folks, buying candy and snacks in secrecy and how arousing it was to see my gut blow up. But now it just doesn't feel the same.

I tend have boxes upon boxes of takeout and despite being absolutely full it never feels enough. And I don't mean this in an appetite sense, I mean in a fulfillment kind of deal.

That ecstasy I used to have is just gone.

I tried switching gears, see if feeding someone else would maybe bring me joy but it just doesn't as well. No matter how many content I watch or read its still disappointing to me.

Has anyone felt that, has anyone ever had a feederism blues of some sort? Or maybe I just stopped feeling arousal from this and should look for something else?

I feel like it's pretty normal to get burnt out on anything if it's done too much. Even if it's something you consider your favorite, having too much of something can get repetitive after a while.

It might just be you need to take a break and put your focus on something else for a while?

Sounds like you are burned out on the fetish you have.
Find something else to get into and occupy your time with.
Its pretty common to get burned out on things.
Its happened to be several times.
I had passed the 330 pound mark and had to lose weight to have ankle surgery.
I lost 125 pounds and kept it off for a couple of years Had my surgeries and healed up over that time frame only to get into gaining again the following year.
Gaining was much more fun the second time around.
You may get back into love of the full feeling in time after you time away from it.

Ive been around the Syndicate for 17 years and I've had just about enough.

It hasnt been fun in years ever since the "buy my content" clowns showed up. Then Covid wiped out whatever interest I had left because I couldnt meet anyone.

Apart from honing my craft writing stories I can scribble out in 20 minutes, whats the point anymore? For me all I get are married women hiding from, cheating on or having problems with their husbands, 700 girls thinking they're the next Big Cutie demanding to be paid just to chat with and the complete fakes you can spot a mile away. Very rarely do I chat with someone who isnt going to delete their account out of nowhere, isnt demanding money or is real. Yay...

yep.

The whole buy my content was never my thing because I worked full time and had a small business too.
No time to get naked and chat with guys online.
If girls like doing that and make money well then I am all for it. A girl has to make money some how.

That's true, and I don't think we are suggesting to bar it. It is just a change some don't care for.

I know
Times have changed in the 11 -12 years I have been here and much more is allowed these days.
People should be free to make a living any way they choose.
Its just not something I would feel comfortable doing.

@Baba Yaga:
I want to say that wasn't the point I was making but I sorta understand where you are coming from. But you don't have to go trough those channels you know. I think there are other options? Just because most of them are like that doesn't mean you can't comb trough and find someone more interesting.

@alabaster25:
@Ditzy:

I can see that being the case. And I do remember that I used to push myself a lot in the past because I wasn't getting the satisfaction I hoped. Which in most cases led me to being sick and developing a sort of ulcer in the esophagus...

But still, I don't have literally anything else for me. Other than my hobbies like reading or playing games... not exactly related to this.

Re the loosing your enjoyment I certainly have days, weeks, months, where this just doesn't really do it for me. I find myself enjoying more vanilla things (I've recently discovered r/NaughtyUniShenanigans, which is somehow relatively pornographic, but also really quite wholesome?) or just not really caring for sexual things and spending my time thinking about other stuff like new hobbies.

Re the change in the community, yeah it really sucks, if you look at posts from 10 years ago it was things like "is it freedom or rationality that gives life meaning? lets discuss the philosophies Plato in the context of feederism" now it's "oh feed me daddy, real feeders (who want to give me cash) only" or loads of people with no interest in making conversation expecting you to get them off while they give one word answers without even the courtesy of a "wbu?" when you ask how their day has been. I'm all for enterprising people making and selling great content, but you don't walk into a bar and start trying to sell people insurance, they are there to socialise and have a good time. It's the same here.

I did offer to submit pull requests to add some features to the site (writing code for them for free for you non techie people) that I think would really help foster and bring back the community aspects, but the admins never got back to me on it.